PROOF IT WAS ME:
Inspired by Yusef Komunyakaa's poem Facing It
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I pass restaurants filled with people digesting
Fueling themselves, I try to remember my last meal
What it was like to suck the fat off fingers
To pull remnants of meat off bones
My face feels heavy; I look through
its washed out image on the window
Hollow cheeks, colorless eyes
A woman cries
with laugher, I can’t hear
her.
My feet leave temporary prints,
in the rain, proof it was me watching
them.
I pass the windows looking into life in motion
I watch people in a layer of rain on the window,
my core is empty.
Outside it is damp, and dark.
Inside is vibrant and warm.
I watch my prints on the sidewalk disappear slowly.
Who is that? That face in the window? Is it,
mine?
Rooms hosting smiling people, they are together.
I look at them—I am outside the glass.
I look at my heavy face—I am on the glass.
Cement underneath me. Nobody walks with me.
Join those
people.
More wetness on the sidewalk, more wetness.
Rejection of the impulse to join.
My face flickers, a child waves at me and smiles:
No, he’s waving to a real
person.